my PTSD/trauma & anxiety story

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10 сарын өмнө

Hi my DIY babes, today's video is something I've been thinking about making for years now, but honestly wasn't really sure how to even start. I've referenced my anxiety in the past in smaller ways, but I want to tell you my full story today and let you know that I am right here with you in this daily battle. My past has made me who I am, and I hope that shedding a little more light on mental health and telling my story can make even just one person feel a little less alone. I love you, believe you and KNOW that things get better.
Helpful Links!
National Helpline, 1-800-662-HELP (4357)
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255
♡ XO lauren


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ChrisSoCalm 2 өдрийн өмнө
All anxiety is separation anxiety
Kilaueaz Swe
Kilaueaz Swe 4 өдрийн өмнө
I have PTSD, GAD, ADHD and SAD. Anxiety sucks so much, and it affects u in so many ways. My medication saved my life, I hate the stigma around medication for mental health.
Cara Mayfield
Cara Mayfield 6 өдрийн өмнө
So what about flying? does the agoraphobia affect you on planes? or do you feel okay because you know where the bathroom is?
PTSD: Through the Darkness
PTSD: Through the Darkness 10 өдрийн өмнө
Well done. Embrace, accept and love who YOU are, even with PTSD and it's ravages. Run YOUR race. We are perfect in God's eyes, even more so, in our brokenness. That is when He is closest, showering us with complete love and approval of us. He meets us exactly where we are and how we are. He is never surprised. Society can't do any of that. God can, God does.
PTSD: Through the Darkness
PTSD: Through the Darkness 10 өдрийн өмнө
"I should have gone to therapy." Well done, well said. Trauma survivors and those that TALK about it are so much more courageous than the society that surrounds them. Yet, the battle rages on for those that silently CHOOSE to get up and face each day WITH PTSD. THAT is courage. THAT is valor. THAT is will. THAT is walking out your purpose in the face of adversity. THAT is admirable.
Ariel Birdwell
Ariel Birdwell 13 өдрийн өмнө
I wont go into the details (long story) but i have been going through a lot of these things myself. And i've been having a really REALLY hard time with it. This video meant a lot to me to know someone i look up to so much goes through the same things i do and is such a strong woman regardless. Thank you, I love you girl
Joe Huerta
Joe Huerta 14 өдрийн өмнө
Lot of people in the comments trying say they have PTSD,try getting shot
Kalani Phillips
Kalani Phillips 20 өдрийн өмнө
What's grounding?
Pink Cake
Pink Cake 27 өдрийн өмнө
She reminds me of Alisa Marie
katmurakami Сарын өмнө
As someone who suffers from General Anxiety Disorder along with Social Anxiety Disorder and Depression, I related so much to this video. I have so many of the same thoughts and feelings you mentioned, especially the one about feeling guilty about my struggles and feeling like I should be healed. I constantly feel like my symptoms and I are inconveniencing those around me. So, I wanted to take the time to say I appreciate you posting this and talking openly about your mental health.
L i v D I Y
L i v D I Y 2 сарын өмнө
Lauren, I’m so sorry PRAYING FOR YOU!!! 😭😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️😘😘
Skyler Maxwell
Skyler Maxwell 2 сарын өмнө
my best friend with severe anxiety, depression, adhd and social anxiety recently started therapy over zoom 🥺 i’m so proud of her
Skyler Maxwell
Skyler Maxwell 2 сарын өмнө
i’m watching this after she posted the rest in peace video...
Hope Singing Life
Hope Singing Life 2 сарын өмнө
I struggle with depression and also have anxiety and ptsd due to how certain people have treated me and have alot of nightmares some days are better than others thank you for sharing much love ❤💗
Jade Curwood
Jade Curwood 3 сарын өмнө
I have been diagnosed with GAD and its so refreshing too hear you come out an tell your story publicly. I hope you're ok after doing this and good job
Taylor Panzarino
Taylor Panzarino 3 сарын өмнө
watching this for the first time. Love you Laur 💜
Rebecca O'Toole
Rebecca O'Toole 3 сарын өмнө
Please do more anxiety videos it makes me feel less alone knowing someone i Iook up to is going through the same thing as me😫💗
Kayla Wassabi
Kayla Wassabi 3 сарын өмнө
Lauren good luck with the video
Rochelle Donato
Rochelle Donato 3 сарын өмнө
Thank you so much for being vulnerable with this! You are so strong. I hope you’re doing well during this crazy time. I would love to have you make a follow up video especially with everything going on with the pandemic.
Katie Alford
Katie Alford 4 сарын өмнө
I’ve had therapy before and the first girl literally told me to get my feelings and put them in a box, lock it, then throw it away.
JLEE 913
JLEE 913 4 сарын өмнө
All love for all of the many people dealing with these struggles. I suffer with the same issues on a regular basis. Let’s help each other 🙂🖤.
Paige Taino
Paige Taino 4 сарын өмнө
Rest In Peace. We all loved him. Stay strong.
Stephanie Coffield
Stephanie Coffield 4 сарын өмнө
Also thank you for how delicately you spoke about emetophobia. Sometimes words trigger my anxiety and I feel like you were very aware of how you spoke about it..❤️
Charu Sahu
Charu Sahu 4 сарын өмнө
I now realize who it was. I really appreciate your courage, Lauren! Stay strong. By sharing this you have made a lot of us realize various things about ourselves and our emotional lives. You've made me realize how precious people around us are! Thank you! Huge thanks to the strong soul you've mentioned. The video has changed a part of me. 😇
Every turn matters
Every turn matters 4 сарын өмнө
Uhhh😭😭😭 I love watching these kinds of videos so I don’t feel so alone but I can’t watch them without starting to panic 😭😭😭😭
Penelope Jenner
Penelope Jenner 4 сарын өмнө
Well done. You really are fighting a daily battle and you should realize each day that you are your own hero. Thanks for sharing.
Jaden Png
Jaden Png 4 сарын өмнө
Rest in peace 😢
Mikaely Layser
Mikaely Layser 4 сарын өмнө
hi lauren! I love your channel and also have anxiety and emetophobia. i am new to your channel and was watching your rest in peace video and wondered if this is the person you were talking about in this video. i am deeply sorry for your loss. love your channel!!
Jasmine Barnes
Jasmine Barnes 4 сарын өмнө
Lauren is literally me! I'm praying for you girl! I love you!!! 💘
C D 4 сарын өмнө
Ola Wasyłyk
Ola Wasyłyk 4 сарын өмнө
I have emetophobia and I really often hear that it is only imaginated. This phobia lead to the point that I’m scared to travel because anyone may feel sick and throw up
Michelle Blubaugh
Michelle Blubaugh 4 сарын өмнө
Oh my gosh!!!! It’s like you’re talking directly about me!!! I have experienced everything that you’re talking about!!!! I’ve been on every anxiety, depression and panic drug there is and nothing has really helped with the anxiety and panic!!!
A-Different-One 4 сарын өмнө
Amna Zulfiqar
Amna Zulfiqar 4 сарын өмнө
If you watch her recent video you will know who she's talking about in the vid. Rip
Charlene Enriquez
Charlene Enriquez 3 сарын өмнө
Babs rip we will always remember u
C D 4 сарын өмнө
Amna Zulfiqar so sad, I remember them.
Maria Lopes
Maria Lopes 4 сарын өмнө
I’m so sorry Lauren...
Paulina Gomez
Paulina Gomez 4 сарын өмнө
Anxiety sucks .. I deal with it often , just episodes of being scared on daily basis ... can’t walk .Doubt myself , but we are stronger than we think guys! Remember this “You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have” Everyone who goes through this I hope you find light we deserve to grow and live life happily 🙏🙏✨
Abby Bennett
Abby Bennett 4 сарын өмнө
I am 11 and I have emetophobia it started about 2-3 years ago I was in a store and I couldn’t find my mom and I started freaking out and panicking and I started to feel sick and I didn’t know what to do so I started running down each i’ll feeling like I’m about to throw up. I finally found my mom she told me that she did this when she was younger too so that made me feel relieved but the next day I had school and I got to school what I was going to get sick and she was freaking out a whole day and every morning I was always late to class spending the whole morning in the nurses office and find ways to cope with it because you can keep sitting the nurses office
comimar 5 сарын өмнө
Your DIY on things to do for anxiety was the first video I ever watched you created ❤️ Thank you
ZOE TAM 5 сарын өмнө
this is so sad i'm so sorry about that, thank u for being brave and telling us.
Alliyah Ross
Alliyah Ross 5 сарын өмнө
I'm 11 and I've had panic attacks before and they are really scary and my Nana had multiple seizures in a row in front of me and I was really scared
Alana Foster
Alana Foster 5 сарын өмнө
I haven't watched your channel for like two years, I was shocked and proud of how much you have grown. You videos are so mature and real now, thankyou for sharing this. I hope you realise how much this helped the people watching this. ❤
Joey Canadian
Joey Canadian 5 сарын өмнө
As someone with mild epilepsy, after a while you stop being scared. I don't know if it's the same for everyone. But.. *I 'm getting off my medication soon, Boi *!!!
Sophie Lynn
Sophie Lynn 5 сарын өмнө
Personally, I have such anxieties in my head about the silliest of things that I have become what most people would consider a wimp lmao I tried to explain to my friends that I can’t physically start conversations with people, never mind new people, that I have the hugest separation anxiety and fear that anything could happen to someone whilst they’re away. I have very frequent checking behaviours, because my brain is always saying “what if”. But I can’t pinpoint it to any trauma or reason and it kind of makes me feel well maybe what I’m experiencing isn’t serious and valid enough to get help...
Briana B.
Briana B. 5 сарын өмнө
I can only imagine what she or anyone that lives with this is going through with the effects of the corona virus right now. I pray that everyone is doing well and has a good support system ❤️
J. M.
J. M. 5 сарын өмнө
Hey ik you will probably never see this but i wanted to say u r so strong for sharing about this. I have two friends in my grade in middle school [8th grade] that have constant seizures [like multiple times a day at school and yes they trigger eachothers] and i can relate. I also have so much anxiety because of my Misophonia and HSP [which is kinda like Misophonia but it's a bit different so if youd like an explanation just ask] and it reaaaally got me in this video so thank you for sharing this with all of us strangers 🖤
Dima Llanos
Dima Llanos 5 сарын өмнө
i remember whenever i was in third grade. i was in the middle of spelling a word at the spelling bee, when my best friend started having a seizure for the first time of many. she was in a medically induced coma for a week, and afterward she had a brain surgery that made her paralyzed and struggling to regain her strength. this was 5 years ago, and now she is part of the youth Paralympic USA swimming team, and it makes me so happy about how far she has come
Ejr 14
Ejr 14 5 сарын өмнө
But how do you tell your parents you need therapy? like I told them I had anxiety but idk how to say I need help
Amber Wright
Amber Wright 5 сарын өмнө
i finally seeked help this year for my mental health. & was diagnosed with PTSD & anxiety. currently being treated.
Grace Andersen
Grace Andersen 6 сарын өмнө
I’m literally so happy someone else feels this way
alexandra beard
alexandra beard 6 сарын өмнө
You’re always so well-spoken and poised! You are truly a ball of light! Thank you for sharing a personal part of you!
Crystal P.Young
Crystal P.Young 6 сарын өмнө
hey laura... i came across ur video today and it really hit home... thanks for doing that video... opened my eyes when it comes to what ive been going through and what ive been dealing with... i do alot of coloring and ive become really good at it... lol cant draw for the life of me cut coloring is a different story... anyways now im blabbing... just wanted to say thanks... video was awesome nd i gain alotta knowledge from it...
Taylor Grant
Taylor Grant 6 сарын өмнө
Love you Lauren!!! Thank you so much for sharing your story, I know that this will help so many people❤️
Riana Dawn
Riana Dawn 6 сарын өмнө
Omg this literally describes what I go through and I thought I was a freak! I won’t go anywhere far away from home or concerts because I’m afraid of getting sick.
Melissa 6 сарын өмнө
thank you
Nara M
Nara M 6 сарын өмнө
Kait Bagwell
Kait Bagwell 6 сарын өмнө
My fiance recently died from SUDEP. I had to watch it happen. I feel your pain. My anxiety has never been worse. Thank you for this video.
Ramsey Wiggin
Ramsey Wiggin 6 сарын өмнө
I have started watching you during the quarantine. I can relate to your story. I was there the night my cousin had a huge seizure, she did get brain damage but she is still a loving huge part of my life. Just a different version.
Kenzie Norfor
Kenzie Norfor 6 сарын өмнө
I know what its like to witness a seizure my mum has had epilepsy pretty much her whole life and I myself have experienced the same emotions as you have and still do. It's hard to stay strong..
Stigma 6 сарын өмнө
Triangles VLOG
Triangles VLOG 7 сарын өмнө
This has to be my fav!! video of you!! girl!! yasss keep staying strong!! U GOT THiS!! LOVE U SM!!
Evelyn Procopio
Evelyn Procopio 7 сарын өмнө
Thank you so much for this video, I believe I am starting to have anxiety and miner anxiety attacks so this video really helped me. Thanks
Raven’s Wing
Raven’s Wing 7 сарын өмнө
I thought I just had anxiety and depression but I realized that my symptoms were more ptsd than anxiety. So yeah. I am “healed-ish” but I have depression I know that, considering I self harmed, and wanted to commit suicide for years. Anxiety since whenever someone raises their voice a certain way I get nervous and flashback to some things from my childhood. So I wish you the best everyone.
Amanda 7 сарын өмнө
How do you act happy and outgoing? I am so lost I dont get it.
Fenella 7 сарын өмнө
Thank you for sharing your story with us! Hearing other people's stories really helps me in feeling less alone
AieshaSummer 7 сарын өмнө
I came across this video at the perfect time in my battle of anxiety..thanks for sharing Lauren definitely feel less alone.
Summer Solstice
Summer Solstice 7 сарын өмнө
I could relate to this video so much and honestly knowing that you go through the same thing makes me feel better we are here for you Lauren ❤️
- Ting
- Ting 7 сарын өмнө
thank you Lauren 💖
Julie Soai
Julie Soai 8 сарын өмнө
Thanks for sharing your story and making me feel less alone Lauren :-) Wishing you all the best
Kristin Cortese
Kristin Cortese 8 сарын өмнө
I have the exact same thing I am scared of getting sick and nauseous in public and trying to find the nearest exit! I have been going to therapy for 2 years and it was great to relate to someone like you! I have watched your videos for about 6 YEARS now and have dealt with general anxiety since I was in the 5th grade! Im an art therapy major and art has ALWAYS helped me and is a source of relaxation and expression for me from my anxiety! I do little art videos now on youtube to show others how art helps with mental illness!
Geiosha Wilson
Geiosha Wilson 8 сарын өмнө
Thank you for opening up
EmmyLee101 8 сарын өмнө
Girl your a DIY queen that's all that matters take care of your health first love you @LaurDIY
Fed Pex
Fed Pex 8 сарын өмнө
Moises Castro
Moises Castro 8 сарын өмнө
In Jesus name speak to everyone amen comment if you hear him he will heal you're sickness
B l u e B e r r y's
B l u e B e r r y's 8 сарын өмнө
I h a v e m e n t a l h e a l t h i s s u e s
Daniella Von - Arx
Daniella Von - Arx 8 сарын өмнө
If your ever in Vancouver check out Dr Alexa Raucher at Lonsdale naturepaths clinic, she does this emotional release treatment that gets rid of deep rooted trauma- my whole family has done it and seen incredible results 😘
Robbie 8 сарын өмнө
I can relate to this immensely, thankyou so much for making this.
Camila Golub
Camila Golub 8 сарын өмнө
I'm currently doing EMDR and its really tough. I'm treating several traumas at the same time and it's really hard, but it's been good and successful so far.
Emma Haines
Emma Haines 8 сарын өмнө
The people who ignore you I had people yelling at me and made at me while I had a panic attack which led to an anxiety and panic attack together and they are made cause I couldn’t do what they were asking this made me feel a lot less alone
Muriel Hammond
Muriel Hammond 8 сарын өмнө
There is this book that is turning into movie called the women in the window
Ciara Monkman
Ciara Monkman 8 сарын өмнө
hopefully you are healed now and I love how you could open up about all this stuff that happened that really shows me that your comfy sharing your story to the world.
Emma Haines
Emma Haines 8 сарын өмнө
As soon as you started talking I started to cry I watched this video a month ago when you posted it but I have recently been having panic attacks and feel like no one can relate. So thanks for putting this out there I think it helps a lot of people feel less alone.
kate pyatt
kate pyatt 8 сарын өмнө
this makes me so happy. i struggle with the same exact thing with emetophobia. i've always looked up to you and the way you talk about anxiety. i love you ❤️✨
Caitlin Mortlock
Caitlin Mortlock 9 сарын өмнө
I feel better after having watched this video. No joke an hour or so ago I was lying down for ages, doing nothing, in a “I give up mindset”. Now though I feel excited or positive about my first day of second year at university and just my family :). Thank you Lauren 💜💛
Sylvia Mitchell
Sylvia Mitchell 9 сарын өмнө
Thank you so much Lauren. I really felt so alone. Nobody I talk to or am with everyday can understand what emetophobia is. It’s so hard to feel less alone unless the person you are with is going through the same thing as you. It’s really great that you are sharing your story for people who really need to hear these things. 💕
Brandy Gast
Brandy Gast 9 сарын өмнө
I also have a generalized anxiety disorder with panic attack syndrome, PTSD and OCD. I witnessed a traumatic injury of a friend. I'm always very jumpy. I can't watch horror due to jump scares. Loud noise is awful especially unexpected. My coping methods are the same as yours, plus exercise and medication. Thanks for sharing.
Donut Lover
Donut Lover 9 сарын өмнө
the fact that people disliked this video is terribly sad...
kia bass 879
kia bass 879 9 сарын өмнө
I have btsd too i do have autism
Quack stuff
Quack stuff 9 сарын өмнө
Thank you this helped me and i hope it helps more people
Amrit Rajasansi
Amrit Rajasansi 9 сарын өмнө
Thank you Lauren! I didn't realise that I used to have emetophobia until I saw this video. Back when I was in high school and college, I used to have to rush out of exams and assemblies because I felt like I was being trapped and needed to know where the nearest exits were at all times - all because I didn't want to get sick while being in a place that I couldn't leave. Ironic, because thinking like that actually would make me sick! I don't have it anymore thankfully, but in recent years I have been struggling with anxiety, which I found out recently is due to having PCOS. The amount of times my hormone imbalances have caused me to have anxiety attacks has been so shitty, but I am trying to work on dealing with my symptoms and stress triggers. Thank you for sharing your knowledge and experience - no one is alone
Madisyn Wright
Madisyn Wright 9 сарын өмнө
This is SO weird...but I've been struggling really badly recently with emetophobia and my anxiety. I just started therapy. I was watching the Reality House series and felt a weird connection with you and decided to look at your channel. This is the first video I saw and clicked on, and I finally found someone who can relate to the severity of my emetophobia and even acknowledge that it exists. Thank you so much for this. Your story was so helpful.
Helen Phillips
Helen Phillips 9 сарын өмнө
My anxiety is involved with both emetophobia and agoraphobia as well❤️ so glad to hear you talking about it🥰
Love Kate
Love Kate 9 сарын өмнө
I just started crying because I’ve never heard anyone else open up and I feel alone because everyone thinks anxiety and depression is a joke. Every kid in my school has told me they have anxiety.
Elianna Eccleston
Elianna Eccleston 4 сарын өмнө
I get what you're saying though, as someone with generalized anxiety disorder I'm tired of the response 'oh, I get anxious sometimes, too.'
Love Kate
Love Kate 9 сарын өмнө
I think therapy would help me a lot because I feel like I have nobody to talk to about my anxiety but I get anxious when I think about asking my parents about it. I went to therapy in 3rd grade but we eventually stopped because I had anxiety attacks about believing my therapist was going to tell everyone everything personal I told her
Charlotte Green
Charlotte Green 9 сарын өмнө
I have emetophobia and it SUCKS! I also have a smaller case of agoraphobia which comes with my fear of being sick. I thought that I was the only one who carries medicine and bags in my purse incase i'm sick. It has definitely made my life harder and I hope someday I wont have it. When I was younger I wouldn't even leave the house for the fear that I would be sick!
Kyle Atkinson
Kyle Atkinson 9 сарын өмнө
Phil i
Phil i 9 сарын өмнө
i want to give this a million likes so everyone becomes aware!!!
Phil i
Phil i 9 сарын өмнө
sorry sorry sorry tmi, but are you on hormonal birth control? i am and am now wondering if going off it will improve my mental health (hopefully the anxiety and panics!) im curious to others experiences
Joseph D
Joseph D 9 сарын өмнө
You will get threw it, I have faith in you
Karly Edge
Karly Edge 9 сарын өмнө
Thank you so much! I have emetophobia too. No one understands it! I carry water and tums everywhere! And I can’t thank you enough for posting this. We are strong and can get though this
Jessica Suzanne
Jessica Suzanne 9 сарын өмнө
I have anxiety and PTSD too 😥😥 And also depression.. It sucks but I take medication for it
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